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This one you could consider a New Years resolution. Although it's something that's been kicking around in the back of my head for some time. For almost two years actually. Gee, maybe even three? I'm such a whore when it comes to timelines. Okay, no, yeah... just over two years, coming up on the third. On my 24th birthday I was dying to get my hands on a brand spanking new copy of O'Reilly's HTML & XHTML - The Definitive Guide by Chuck Musciano & Bill Kennedy. One night, some time before my birthday, while my brother, Mom and I were out in Long Beach we stopped over at a Barnes & Noble and my Mom answered my prayers. That night I walked away with a new O'Reilly animal book of my very own, my first in fact. It was a very special night and a very special gift. I loooved it and love it still. Though you wouldn't know it based on observation. :(

I think the hallmark of any great gift is the amount of use derived from it. If that were the case, you might say my O'Reilly book is pretty shitty. But it's not! That assessment speaks more of me and my motivation than anything else. I'm glad that I have it and you'd have to kill me to pry it away from my hands, but sadly I've let it languish. It's horrible. I feel such guilt about it. There's so much potential there, in the book and me. We need each other. Apart we're just sorta empty. But I want us both to sing. I craved the thing for a reason. The spark is there and I want to learn but I've been in such a... I've been in this place. I've been moving out of it. Baby steps.

Anyway, I think I'm ready. As I've said before, this year the watchword is change. I want to light a fire under my ass and get this project going. For the longest time I've wanted to code and I felt that HTML and I were made for one another. I realize that it's old and in some sense on the precipice of obsolescence but it's where I want to go. There's this charm about the old, especially in tech. I very much like the idea of getting my feet wet with something most people in my situation are passing up. It's more practical to learn something more useful and popular at the moment. But I'm not about that. I want to go back. I want to see how things were. It's just the way my mind and heart work. I want to start at the beginning. So that's where I'm starting.

Also, given the new year I've been thinking what a... well I have a domain and the web space, a gift courtesy of my wonderful brother. So it's there. It's all there. I have the means. I have the mind, I have the hands, I have the heart, I have the keyboard, I have the machine, I have the book, I have the domain and I have the space. It's all there. Do you realize how many people would kill for that? And I'm just letting it collect dust. I feel like shit about that. So when the new year came around I was in the mindset of renewals and I kept thinking about the domain upkeep and I thought about how horrible it was that it got no use last year. None of it. It all just sat there, because of me. I'm the catalyst. It could've been different. I could've had something. Anything. Well I promise to have that this year. For the most part, the most important resolutions I keep to myself and follow through on. Those I'm shaky about and need some help with I throw into the light. I wanted to share this so there was some sort of accountability. It'd be quite sad if this time next year I had nothing to show for it. But it's out there now and I promise to have something to show for it.


DS333, dusting off.