Symbology

I went to church earlier today. I only "attend" (no service for me) twice a year, once for Mother's Day and once for Father's Day. I bring this up because I have a problem with relegating my "worship" (this is worthy of its own post) to a singular space that's removed and separate from my normal life. It's odd to me that... well maybe it's best that I don't get into anything too... negative. Life, all around, is constantly reminding us of the power and beauty of the transcendental. What it is that some people seek in a church I find in the everyday flow of life. It's in a conversation. It's in a moment of tragedy or weakness. It's a smile and a laugh... it's all the things, both big and small, that fill us with love, shock, humility, gratitude, awe, fear and most of all joy; joy in the wondrous reality of being. The idea of having to go somewhere to find that... or honor that... that, which is here with me, within me is so obtuse. I can't wrap my head around it.

But that's not what I wanted to get into... not specifically anyway. Speaking to the point of having it all around and within, I think it's important, no, vital to create a... a personal symbology that tightly interweaves into our everyday lives and constantly reminds us of those things we wish to stay connected with. Though, this business of symbols and The Referential is quite at odds with what I've just spoken about. It might sound as though that I'm suggesting adopting a... it's not about books or clothes or language. It's about mirroring what's within without. So I don't mean to suggest that advocating a system or structure of superficialities will bring you closer to the divine; it's quite the opposite. My symbology is about projection. I hate the idea of absorption or osmosis as a means of connection. What I really mean to say is that you won't ever find it out there until you find it within. The revelation doesn't come because you will it... or because you speak the words. The mirroring I spoke of earlier is of an internal light, a profound personal wisdom gained through experience. The symbols come into play by drawing on the power of those feelings, thoughts and ideas we hold most dear. We inject power and significance into them... without us they are meaningless, and yet they also inform. I use them all the time. Reflections... reflections of what is, reflections of what I need and reflections of what I want. There's a strength to be found in your own reflection.

As always I'm sure I've come across quite vague, if not, certainly convoluted. :P What are these reflections? They come in many forms. For me it's in the clothes, in the food, in color, in shape, in arrangement and constellation, in form, in behavior, in speech... everything is singing my song, everything is telling my story. I suppose it's ultimately about meaning... a constellation of allusion to your personal wisdom; arrangements that refer to a meaningful life. I wish I got into this sooner because there's so much to say and now so little time to do so. Fortunately I got this in before the end, and quite apt that I did so on this day of all days... the last thing I want is people telling me that what I need in my life is meaning, their meaning; all my life is is meaning... I wouldn't know how to a live a life without it.


DS333, calculated.