Thankfully I'm feeling more lucid today. I'm still sick but I feel more myself than I have in the past couple of days. Since I've been laid up I've had more and more time to consume, more than usual. And I caught myself a few times thinking how sad this game of cat & mouse is. I'm never going to catch up. There'll forever be an endless supply of media to consume. I'll never get to it all. It's an old thought, but since I've had more time to think it's been weighing heavily on my mind. There's something especially tragic about this thought when I consider the way I consume media. I try to go all out and I try to do things in order. There have been so many artists I've shirked because I've felt their collections were too vast and just weren't ready for me... or I wasn't ready for them. It takes time. There's so much I already have on the back-burner. I'm consumed as is. I have to complete something before I feel I'm ready to try something or someone new. And if I am ready for something new, I've already a list of new things to dive into. It's hard for me to get into something truly new. It's hard for me to consume spontaneously. It happens every now and then; it's very rare.
Who knows, maybe I'll get to a place where I feel satiated... but it seems so far away. I sometimes wish I could get through things more quickly... but thats a double-edged sword. Moving any faster than I am now would feel cheap. It's about time and appreciation. It takes time to savor. When it comes to media I don't want to become a shallow glutton. It's the whole quality vs. quantity debate again. I'm a quality guy. I'll opt to feel starved while being full rather than feel satiated and ultimately be empty.
DS333, chomping away.
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